Seemingly Insignigificant Coincidences....

Today I was reading in Esther.... It is amazing to me the story of an orphan, raised by her uncle, who finds herself in the delight of the most powerful man in her life. A man who literally seems to control the fate of her family, and her people.... I read in the commentary that this book almost didn't even make it into the bible... how the lack of spirituality, note of worship, and God's involvement made authorities question its value as a biblical book.... The commenter noted how it seemed that the author deliberately left these aspects out, possibly to depict God's sovereignty even in seemingly insignificant coincidences. There are details in this story that are easily glanced over, but later prove to be heavily weighed actions and determiners.. I guess it just got me thinking about the peaks and valleys in my own life.... Certainly there have been times where God is big, His voice loud, His hand mighty, His presence obvious. But there have also been times where He seems small, hidden, his face behind a cloud, his influence goes largely undetected. It made me wonder about the seemingly insignificant coincidences that go un-noticed, where I might be missing His supremacy... For me, and maybe others that have grown up in a largely charismatic environment, I look to see God in Power and Might, in prophetic words, in supernatural healing and other signs and wonders.... And while I do not wish to take away from the wonder and awesomeness in those moments, I guess I am learning that God is ever present in quiet times too. In sad times, in bad times, He is still sovereign. He is still mighty, He is still piecing together the seemingly insignificant that will ultimately shape who I am. He is still molding me, still forming me, still loving me.... I am learning to look for God not only on the Mountain top, but in the valleys too... In the thick of the mud and the rain and the storms. In the midst of long, seemingly unending paths where I don't know where I am or which way to turn. When things are silent, when I am bored, when I am delighted, when I am content. I don't want to simply exist, I want to experience all He has for me. I want to understand the significance of the details and events that I have dismissed before, and find Him in the midst.... Someday I'll write about how struck I am that this girl, was so honoring and submissive to a King who almost sanctioned the mass destruction of her people. Surely if she can honor, and submit to her husband, there's hope for anyone... even me.

It's Spring!

I really should post a blog.... Dear Lord, its been 2 months since my last post... do I still have readers out there? If so, you should fire me! But thanks for giving me some grace instead.... If you've been following for a while, or if you are brave enough to go back into my previous posts you'll recognize quickly that this winter has been a season of growing and learning. And braking and aching... and I'm sooo grateful for the spring...I'll try to catch you up on the last two months.... I successfully past my Real Estate License exam the second week in March. Whew... I was sweating that like crazy, my fear of failure and perfectionism were really rearing their ugly heads... so, Thank God I passed the first time! After that life got a little, or a lot crazy. Basically in the past month I have sold five houses, and have one active listing. How's that for starting off? Okay okay, so I had an advantage, three years in the industry can teach you alot, but still, I'm thrilled!!! Let me just say that the info I had to learn to pass the test, didn't really teach me a whole lot about getting out in this market, that I am learning as I go. My family is adjusting to my crazy work schedule. My amazing husband has kicked in like crazy and my kiddos are doing swell. We're all working together and gearing up for a season of craziness... but it's just for a season. I have prayed before taking each client, that God would bring me people who needed and were ready to buy houses, and that we would find favor in our house hunting, and He has given me favor. I'm sincerely loving interacting with each family, each person who is looking for a home. I'm thrilled to be a part of the process and to get a chance to be a part of their lives, even if only for a while. I'm learning about rest, more about balance, and alot about appreciation... I have enjoyed the kick-start that this has given me. I'm enjoying the break from learning, reflecting and deep soul searching. I'm enjoying the sunshine, the flowers, the birds songs and the smell of fresh air seeping through my open windows. I'm loving the laughter of my children playing, the new words that Noah is uttering, the concepts that Julia is learning. I love being a family. On this Easter weekend, I'm especially grateful for the Cross. For the Sacrifice that my savior made for me, for Grace and Redemptions, for Eternal Life that conquers death, for the suffering He bore so that I might be set free... I'm being set free.... and I'm so, so grateful....